♥ Monday, 18 May 2009
@ 6:07 pm
how i wish my life can be so carefree like last time..
club whenever i wish..
drunk whenever i want.
dance whenever i like.
rounding whenever i feel boring.
saturday, 16may: happy birthday to pearlyn & kennth.
sorry kennth i cant make it down for ur birthday party.. :)
you jolly well know that i cant help you up when you have problem, what for still tell me i got help you in some way. do you think that by saying this i won blame myself. than you're wrong. it make me feel bad. i know i'm useless alright. stop using her to compare with me. anyway in ur heart she's the one who always can help you in things. i always trying my best to interact with ur friends but i just cant. we having a age gap including you. some is we got nothing similiar to talk bout. i really don know what you want, what you like, what you thinking. i don have problem communicate with my friend but i having problem communicate with YOUR FRIENDS. i don know why too. but do you know that? you don't. you only will think that i don like to work. i'm lazy. i cant help you up. i not understanding. i don want to talk with ur friend. i only know how to show black face to ur friend. you only will think of my bad point and say bout it. you don even praise me when i do thing right and do it well. maybe in ur eyes i never do anything in a right way before. our distance is getting further and further. you changing everyday. i have trying my best to find a job but i just cant find. every job need at least a N level which i don't have. how to find? i know you never rush me in face but in your heart you're. Now than you let me go back pub to work, how do i work? cant drink until seh. worse is even now i go back. i don have customer base anymore. i wanted to help you but i don't know how. i also don know why i will become so quiet in front of you and ur friend. i don't want things to be in this way but i don't know why i will become like that too. :(
